Sunday, December 14, 2008
As soon as i hit the sheets, emotions swept right through me and the tears fell uncontrollably. It was yet another sleepless night. Sigh. Love makes us vulnerable. Well, you made me vulnerable and then you shot right through my heart. Am I still alive? I feel like a part of me had died. My heart is still bleeding. Words cannot express the tears that fall and those heart wrenches i feel. I searched myself for answers that cannot be produced. I dug my soul trying to see and accept the situation. All is nothing but a blur. And my vision blurred up again.
Why? How have we ended up here? How have I ended up here alone? Forsaken, forgotten, forlorn... You made a decision on your own. I thought i deserve a say. Afterall, it involved me in the first place. You have scarred me with broken promises. I don't know how long this will take to heal. I'm weak I admit it. I thought I was stronger than this. I thought I was very cautious too but I must have fell into some manhole. This manhole must have been love.
Love has no reason right? Trying to fit a logic to it makes it illogical. Love is the greatest power of all mankind. If you've attained or found it, don't ever ever let it go for anything in the world because it's love that makes you the most powerful person alive.
A trip to love has taught me a lesson. In fact, it has reduced me to an empty walking vessel. It has brought me back to where I once was - cold and empty. And maybe, it's better to entrust you to yourself than to someone else. I guess it's still better to trust yourself. I don't believe in love anymore.
Labels: You're cruel and selfish
love you like a sister;
4:11 pm
